Seeking Solace

When the ones I truly loved, turned away;

When the ones I really trusted ditched me,

When the ones who found their ‘guide’ in me,

Disappeared when I felt lost,

When the ones who adored me the most,

Now branded me as fit-for-nothing.

When everyone offered only rejection and dejection,

When everyone painted my weaknesses bright,

And left my strengths behind in darkness,

When everyone used only harsh words on me

That pierced through my heart,

Making wounds that never heal

I roamed around the cruel, ugly world,

Searching for love, peace and a shoulder to lean upon,

My bloodshot eyes wandered around ceaselessly, hopefully,

But they found no one…

Not a single soul amidst the billion faces,

To love me, to have my back,

Not a single soul that would listen to me pour my heart out,

Not a single soul to tell one good thing about me,

Not a single soul that would pat my back and wipe my tears,

Not a single soul to whisper “I love you, despite your flaws” into my ears.

I reached the end of the path,

I grew tired of searching,

My eyelids felt heavy,

My throat had became bone dry,

My legs ached terribly,

I kneeled down having lost the very last ounce of energy and hope.

Then I noticed that the path diverged into two,

I peered at the other path,

That I had never used before

There were a lot of footprints,

Overlapping one and other.

Slowly, I rose up,

As I heard each muscle in my body

Scream with pain.

I staggered towards that path,

Glancing at those footprints,

When I lifted my face,

I saw people rushing towards me to take me into their arms,

They planted kisses all over my face,

They made me dance,

They made me sing,

They fed me foods I had never tasted before,

I realized I had stopped crying,

But I wasn’t smiling either,

I felt a strange sense of hollowness grip my soul,

My eyes gaped at them, blankly,

With no trace of emotion.

But as the days passed,

I began enjoying my life,

After all, I had people around me

To shower fake love on me,

To offer fake trust,

To pamper me with fake kindness.

Yes, everyone are fake here, every single one of them,

And the best part;

I have mastered the art of flashing fake smiles…